Today the tasks of picking up a controller and opening my laptop took strenuous efforts. I am so tired even after turning the contrast down completely on my screen the light still hurts to look at; this entry was not proofed. The holidays are chaotic but my exhaustion is self-inflicted. I started a new book series and along with parenting and holiday responsibilities I read both Marked and Betrayed of the House of Night series in the last 48 hours.
This morning I stayed up until about 1:00 am and read while John feel asleep playing games downstairs. We spent time together but some how slept on separate floors in the midnight hours?
Our plan was to play games at the Flores house tonight. When we called to confirm our plans our hosts cordially let us know they completely forgot we were coming. We decided to hang out with the in-laws instead and then made our way home to put the kiddos to bed. It seems that for another evening we are spending our mandated hour of quality time literally at the eleventh hour.
Today we played Castle Crashers, which proved fun even though I am deliriously tired. It is nice to play a quick hack and slash that does not require intensive critical thinking skills. I think tonight I need some rest and recuperation. The best thing I can do before I blog tomorrow would be to locate my glasses. I am in no condition to wear my contacts and the bad guys and trees all look the same when you are near sighted and without optical support.
After almost an hour of Castle Crashers we switched over to the PS3 with the intent to try the co-op of Burnout. I am always amazed how every Burnout game is able to up the soundtrack ante and come up with even better music. It was the first time we loaded Burnout on our new PS3 (thank you Santa) and so we had to go through all the tutorials and menu sequences. Then we realized we needed updates and decided to forgo Burnout until at least tomorrow.
As the end of our first week of martial gaming is nearing I think the one thing I have realized is it is not just about being present for an hour. It’s about finding a way to make that hour of time fit into our lives. Our marriage and gaming is not a chore that should have to be pushed until the last possible minutes of the day. The next ten days will include Christmas and all the family obligations and chaos entailed in holiday festivities. Inara only has 2 days left before her school break and then we face the toddler tyranny that tries to position our PS3 in a Blu-ray monopoly. I hope to keep close to my heart the idea that I need to make time for my marriage before the days end.